every breath is a battle
the circumstance of being alive can be excruciatingly painful
living with mental illness is like looking at the world through a monochromatic lens;
I often need the help of others to describe the colors of the world to me. what they look like, how they should make me feel
this aberration skews my sense of reality. It leads me in dark circles.
I often find myself in the shadow of a fear, a looming, threatening impulse of self-destruction: that I will be alone and afraid.
this fear consumes me and everything I call home,
but I know that i should not be afraid
every day I will live with joy
and joy will follow me all the days of my life.
I am not my inner child, scared and broken.
I am gentle and strong
I am love and I will love with everything I am
I have been gifted with this burden, but I will carry it with a head held high and love overflowing from my heart
I have much to give to this world and many promises to keep,
and for that I am grateful.
to those who love me and those who I love, thank you for keeping me here when it feels too painful for me to stay.
I will live with joy every day of my life
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